Life

Appreciating Life is my new mentality and enjoying the people I allow around me; ignoring the ignorance and delusional bliss of people in the past that I one day won’t miss!

My Truth

Your rejection hurts
More than you’ll ever know
Every time I call your name
Your response is the same

Time keeps us apart
It won’t let us start
To love with our heart
And give the mind a rest
You said all you want
Are my thoughts…

Well, you had them from the start

Thoughts that are fighting between giving and staying
Laying down the thin line of lust and remaining
Pure to the LOVE that gave life to this world
But the “I don’t know Yous” are justifying the reason
Behind this awkward season
That is staying longer than welcomed

Wishing and hoping and thinking and praying

That one day you and me
Will walk and touch and kiss in the streets
And at home
Where ever that may be
We will read meaningful and meaningless things out loud
And watch each other absorb one another
And…….breathe

12/23/07

My Valentine

Love at first sight to say the least is what I feel-your face knocked me off my feet when you smile I see my life in your eyes and I’m so thrilled to say that you’re my valentine. The love we share cannot be compared, I love you not only today but every single day past the day that my breathe is taken away. My blood runs through your veins and I hope the only remains are the best of me left in you.

-Mommy loves you

Rant

Jokes on you
Right when you think you’re right on track someone comes in and attempts to stop you in your tracks.
Even sliding to the side and knocking the stroke off your back they’ve witnessed your lowest low and are now reminding you of that. People who are close to you and supposed to know you the best are they really here to be the ones that deliver life’s tests…a friend is who they call themselves but a foe are what they seem all up in your business and “trying not to be mean?” Insinuating your intentions and assuming your objections, judging your decisions because they “know what’s best”. Respecting their own mind acting as if they are one knowing you’re two of kind but still and yet very different extremely different and that’s fine. Comparing the incomparable because life happens at different times, don’t try to express my individuality and insult my mind don’t insult my ability to consult my personality and lay it all on the line because all I can be is me. So leave me if you don’t like me don’t try to change me I’m happy. Since the qualities you’ve stamped on me are not pleasing to thee take you’re objections and look in the mirror you may see something other than the one your accusing you may see something confusing that may look O too familiar to thee. Stop trying to control my tongue just because you think I’m wrong, I’m not going to stop I’ll always sing my song I’ll always speak my mind and be politically incorrect, next time you attest to what I feel is best without you try doing it without an arrest then protest then caress your ego.

Rest

Rest...
the things we take for granted
I'm blessed
two words we say so lightly
Life's a test
it's time
To get mines
too tired of being not one of a kind
Yet
Ready to move on from this place
of mediocracy
Ready to run
race to the sun
To the stars, the moon, the skys
that shine
Find that Twinkle
that has almost left my eyes
Got to move quick
searching for more than just a nitch
Even if it makes me a B****
care lost to this mind
Not waiting on time
to live a life thats out of sight
No longer paitently waiting for me
to see
My future.

My Time

I wish that when I remember you I’d stop thinking why
Why when we were together you were not wise
Wise enough to keep us together long
Long enough that I wouldn’t have to hate each love song
Songs of love replay through my mind and I cry
Crying all day and all f****** night
Nights alone in my home and in my mind
My mind is driving me insane my thoughts are so unkind
Unkind
I wish that I never loved you like I did
Did the things that I wish I could take back
Back to the beginning of my un-wasted time
Time that’s gone and will never return in space
I wish that when I remember you I’d stop thinking why…

when Friends go

Although I said goodbye to you a few years ago
Every time I see or hear your name it still hurts you know
And now online I get to see your face and what you’re up to
And it reminds me that you’re doing great
Its bitter sweet
Because truth be told
I think I’d smile if I knew
A little piece of you’re world was upside down
I know I know
That sounds harsh
But I’m being honest you see
I see you don’t miss me
But how do you feel when you see my name
do you think the same
as me?
I’m not proud to say the least
That I think I might miss you
Or maybe just my ego is bruised
Because friends they come
But it will always hurt when they go
Especially when they’re not that far
And they’d just prefer be out of sight
And you out of their mind
But that’s fine
I still don’t like you
And working on trying to forgive you
But I’d pretend if I saw you
That everything was all good too.
So peace my ex-friend
peace my used to be bestest of bestest friends
peace be with you.